God over me,
God under me,
God before me,
God behind me,
I on thy path, O Lord,
Thou, O God, in my steps.
-Carmina Gaelica (Charms of the Gauls),
collected in the 19th century
I would love to be always enveloped in the Presence of God. My faith tells me I am always surrounded by the Love of God but the Presence of God is somehow different. When God is Present and with me in the moment there is a distinct difference. There is a Peace and Joy that supplants all worry and discontent. The worries of the world seem to melt away and are non-existent, if only for that moment. In the Presence of God nothing else matters.
One day my life will be like that – completely enmeshed with God. But until then I must walk this earth in faith and trusting in an unseen God. Well, unseen in the way my earthly eyes would see Him. My spiritual eyes see Him everywhere but my human brain doesn’t always pay attention to the information my spiritual eyes are sending it. And thus my days are spent in conflict.
This morning I prayed once again that I might choose the right path to walk down just for today. Yesterday (or was it the day before?) I chose the not-so-right path and strayed from the His Presence. But God is a Loving and Merciful God and helped me to learn from my errors.
My spiritual journey in this life has been a long and twisted one, winding through marshes and bogs, deserts and storms; folding back on itself any number of times. I am relearning lessons I thought I had already learned but not really, or maybe it is a new level or depth of the same lesson. Maybe it is just another layer of the onion. Maybe I don’t know and will never know. Maybe it is not for me to know. As long as God knows I am okay with that.
For this new year, I pray, God over me, God under me, God before me, God behind me. Enveloped in His Presence, walking on the path He as set before me.