This year is done

This year is done—well, almost.
Tomorrow is a new year and a new day.

Overall my year has been a good one—liberally sprinkled with worries and potential crises; but with the help of God, I have made it through.

As I look back I wish I had
Trusted God more
Looked for God more
And stayed by His side more.

Too often I wandered into a disaster of my own making.
Too often I closed my ears and eyes to the power, wonder and beauty that is God.
Too often I relied on my own sense of self instead of trusting God.

But in truth
I don’t regret those mistakes.
They were a necessary part of the pathway I trod.
In them I have learned and grown.

In this new year I will try
To do better
And be better
At being human
And at the same time being spirit.

Will I make mistakes?
Yes!
Will I wander away from God, at least temporarily?
Probably.
Will my faith remain and even strengthen?
I pray so.

But life is uncertain
And worrisome.

I pray I remember that
God is the only “certain” in my life.
When all else is crashing down around me
When all else is rejoicing in happiness and praise all around me
I pray I will continue to
Rely on God
My Rock, my Savior,
My heart, my soul.
My life.

I will remember

Thank You, Lord for Your mercy
Thank You, Lord for Your love

When I am worried I remember You
I remember the words You have spoken in my heart
I remember the promises You have made
I remember the way You are faithful to me
And I remember Your mercy and love.

In the face of adversity
In the face of my own faults
And in the face of my own humanness…

Let me remember I am Your creation
Let me remember that nothing happens to me that You are not aware of
And let me remember that You have all things in hand.

And though I don’t understand why
And I can’t figure it out

You are in control
You watch over me
And You will guide me through
Whatever comes my way.

Psalm 27

The Lord is my light and my savior
Whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the strength of my life
Again I ask—of whom shall I be afraid?

When troubles set up camp around me
When worries threaten to overwhelm me
They will stumble and fall
Because I am confident in the strength of the Lord to protect me.

The one thing I most desire of the Lord
Is that I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever—
That all the days of my life
Are dedicated to the beauty of God
And in praise to His holy name.

For in time of trouble
He will hide me in His arms
And I will be safe in His love
Than none may touch me
Unless He deems it so.

I will lift up my heart
And sing praises to my Lord
Though trouble is all around me
And worry threatens to overwhelm me
I will sing praises to my Lord.

Hear me when I cry, O Lord!
Have mercy upon me
And answer me.
You have said, “Seek My face”
My heart said to You, “Your face, Lord, I will seek.”

Do not turn Your face from me
Do not be angry with me for my doubts
You have been my help in times past
Continue to be my help now.
O God of my life—when I am all alone
When all others have shut me out
Remind me that You will take care of me.

Teach me Your way, O Lord
Even if the way is rocky and full of stumbling blocks
Teach me that You will make the way smooth
Because I believe in You.

I would have given up many times
If I had not believed in Your Love
Remind me of Your goodness to me
And the mercy You have shown me
And that if I wait on You
You shall give me courage and strengthen my heart—
If I wait on You.

Psalm 27, my interpretation after the New King James Version