I am in a season of waiting.
waiting for a blessing in a specific way.
Waiting is hard.
I grow impatient and frustrated.
And in my impatience and frustration
I become envious at other people’s blessings.
I become doubtful that You, Lord God, love me.
I remain unable to transcend being so human.
And in my inability to transcend being so human
I become deaf to You, Dear Lord.
And in my deafness to Your voice
I become impatient and frustrated
envious and doubtful
unable to transcend
Help me, Sweet God, in my season of waiting.
Thank You for this lesson in waiting.
Thank You that I am learning to have joy
when others are blessed while I wait.
Thank You that I am learning to joy of waiting patiently for Your time
for surely there is always a blessing after a long season of waiting.
Thank You that I am learning that You love me
whether or not I feel loved or not which gives me great comfort while waiting.
Thank You that I am learning to transcend my humanness
to draw closer to Your Spirit.
Thank You that I am learning to listen to You
despite of my deafness.
Thank You for my season of waiting.