In Memorium

What we have once enjoyed deeply we can never lose.
All that we love deeply becomes a part of us.
-Helen Keller

piperi memoriumIf there ever comes a day when we can’t be together,

keep me in your heart, I’ll stay there forever.

-Winnie the Pooh, via A.A. Milne


a journey of healing

God call’s us to life, to love, to healing.
We merely have to find our way home.
– Lisa Tawn Bergren

As I end my recent meditations on the journey of healing, I am reminded that the healing never ends, just as the Love of God never ends.

And for that, I am eternally grateful. For if the Love of God never ends, then I am not facing an eternity of struggle and pain; only a lifetime of it. And a lifetime of mine is but a mere speck of dust in the eternity of the Universe and God.

If I have learned anything along this recent path it is that God has called me (as the quote states) to life, to love, to healing. And all I truly need to do is put one foot in front of the other to keep moving forward and to accept whatever crosses my path as a Gift from God to learn and heal and love Him more.

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how much time is time enough?

Take all the time you need to heal emotionally.
Moving on doesn’t take a day, it takes lots of little steps
to be able to break free of your broken self.
– Thresca

How much time is time enough? When it comes to healing emotionally there is no set timetable but I think depending on the depth of the healing that needs to occur, it might take a lifetime. But, then again, it may also depend on the emotional/psychological makeup of the person. I can’t speak for anyone but me, anything else is pure guess work.

For me, some wounds will only be healed in the Eternal Presence of God. Others are more manageable and can be healed (or have been healed) while I am still in my earth home. Perhaps the point of knowing which wound is so devastatingly awful that only Heaven can heal it and which can be healed here is what matters. I think that might make the difference between living well and living as a victim.

I don’t want to be a victim my whole life. I want to heal from that which I am able to. I want to forgive and forget. Note that I did not say I want to understand why. Why is a moot point. I don’t want to know why. I don’t believe everything has a reason. I don’t believe God orchestrates everything in my life. I don’t believe for a second He sits in His Eternity and says, “Okay, Sabina, you need to learn such and such lesson so I am going to cause/allow this awful thing to happen to you. This is the only way you will learn.” That sounds like a very cruel God indeed and since some faiths teach that, it is no wonder people turn away from God.

Things happen. Stuff happens. Sorry for the curse word, but it fits – sh*t happens. We humans are a cruel bunch. We are not yet healed of our injuries inflicted upon us by countless generations back and many of us (in fact I would venture to say most of us) are not cognizant of the wounds we inflict on each other.

God uses that which we do to each other to help us not to perpetuate the cycle. God is bound by His Own Gift of Free Will. We choose the horrors we inflict – whether by conscious choice or not, we choose them. It is not God’s fault. The fault lies with humankind and humankind alone.

But God is God and He loves us still and wants us to love each other the way He Loves us. By His Grace, maybe we will – one day.

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