Worry and the Timeless One

God made time. For Him, it is a “very little thing” to add an hour to our lives. He’s just not subject to the same temporal constraints that so yoke and choke us. For God, a day is as a thousand years, or a thousand years is as a day. No big deal.

If we are really connected with this One who lives beyond time, we have a real choice in how we live in it. We can focus on the worries, burdens, and fears of our own limited experience and miss the joy that could be ours . . . or we can take the risk, venture out, and truly believe that God is the master. He is not like us. He is absolutely sovereign over time and eternity. ~~ Ellen Vaughn, Time Peace

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If I worship the One who Created time then why do I worry so much about it? Why do I worry about the future, or even today? Worry seems to be part and parcel to human existence. If I’m not worried about my health, its money or my job or my cats or my family or . . . the list goes on. We all have our own worry lists.

What would my life be like if I didn’t worry? If I were able to truly lay down those worries at the feet of God and walk away? How much happier, more joy-filled, more peaceful would I be? Would I even be able to do it? Or, will I do like I’ve always done, lay them down and give them over to God only to pick the worries back up when I get up?

I don’t even know if I know how to lay down my worries – they are so much a part of me maybe I’m afraid that if I lay them down I won’t be me anymore, that I won’t recognize who I am and maybe, maybe,  I really don’t want to stop worrying. Maybe its because I think I can figure things out for myself and secretly I think I don’t need God.

I think – no – I know – I am wrong. I do need God. Now more than ever.

And the struggle goes on…

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For me, touching—ever so lightly—on the astounding nature of time, the universe, and the reality of God’s great weight of glory stirs a new sense of wonder, awakening worship.   The truths of God’s great deeps, unfathomable as they are, lift our sights from the commonplace.   

Thus the echoes of the Big Beginning and the unspooling of time lure us to worship the Creator who flung everything into existence, to sense our own smallness, and to both fear and trust in One so huge.

In turn, we can release small fears and worries. We can savor each little earth-day we are given, and live with purpose, even a sense of legacy…for what we do in this life echoes in eternity, in ways we cannot understand until we arrive there.  Wherever there is.  ~ Ellen Vaughn, Time Peace

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This afternoon as I was driving to pay a bill – only part of the bill – I began to worry and get anxious over not being able to pay the whole bill today. It’s overdue, as are many of my bills, anyway, I felt myself start to tense up and the muscles in my neck and back start to tighten, worry creeping through my body.

And then a thought. “How big is your God?” Well, I believe Him to be bigger than big, huge, tremendous, bigger than I could ever imagine. Another thought, “Why are you afraid? Why are you worried?”

And as I thought on those thoughts a little bit of peace crept in, my muscles unwinding just a bit, and I repeated to myself, “I’m in God’s time.”

Nothing has changed as far as things to worry about. But I am going to make a conscious effort to remind my brain that I am in God’s time and all will be well.

if you had one day to live, what would you do?

It’s only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth
– and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up –
that we will begin to live each day to the fullest,
as if it were the only one we had.
–Elizabeth Kubler-Ross

Who really lives each day to the fullest? I know I don’t. I waste too much time worrying and fussing over things I have no control over. I am aware that my time on this planet is short and I do not know the day or the time of my last breath, yet even with that precious knowledge, I still waste my time.

What does it even mean to live life to the fullest? Am I supposed to go out and jump off bridges or out of planes? Travel to the further reaches of the earth to explore other cultures and natural wonders? Or can I live each day to the fullest right here, in my own house, in my own job, in my own backyard?

If I were told I had one day left to live and I could live that day anyway I wanted with no expenses spared what would I do? How much of that day would be wasted in self-pity and wallowing that I only had that day. Would I consider visiting my family a waste of time? Or would I go on a whirlwind trip to someplace I’ve always wanted to go like Machu Picchu or Angkor Wat? What would I do?

Would it even matter if I did anything at all? What if I spent my last day on earth in contemplation and anticipation of going Home to God? Is that living life to the fullest?

If I was given a choice of things I would take out of my house if it was on fire, my answer would be the furbabies. Over the years it has been different things – photos, scrapbooks, bible, prayer book – but the list has always included whatever creatures reside with me. Now I realize the only thing that is irreplaceable are the pets – yes they can be replaced but not their individual personalities – the rest of the stuff is just stuff.

I asked that question because it is so much easier to answer than what would I do on my last day alive. In a fire, I readily know my priorities. But the other question, I don’t know. In time I suppose I may learn what it means to live life to the fullest but right now it is a question in my heart and mind.

Right now all I need to really do is to live each day to the best of my ability. Not waste a moment worrying over incidentals and replace worry with prayer. Not waste another minute holding onto grudges that have festered in my soul for years and replace grudges with Love. Not waste another second fussing over some perceived wrong by another person and replace that anger or aggravation with forgiveness and understanding.

If I can do those things each day, then perhaps it won’t matter how I might live my last day on earth. Maybe that is what it means for me to live life to the fullest. To be the most full of God that I can be.

 

 

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